Well, this was my second cycle on Femara (Letrozole), and first cycle on the higher dose of 7.5mg. I am currently on CD13, no smiley face OPK just yet....I am hopeful!!! I am hoping that 5 days of 3 little yellow pills will do the trick this time around!! Even if it doesn't end in a BFP (Big fat positive) I just want to know it is working, and making me ovulate!! Even though I have tattoos, I really do not like the idea of injecting myself with needles....I don't want to have to go that route, although I obviously will do whatever it takes, to achieve my goal of becoming a mom!!
Here is a pic of my final 3 pills on CD7....
A little goofy...but hopefully the last 3 little yellow pills I have to take....
The past few days have been a bit harder than other days....A friend of mine had her baby on Friday, and my cousin just had her baby today, and another friend had her baby almost 2 weeks ago, so it has just been back to back! Along with pregnancy announcements, gender announcements, and now a bunch of new baby posts, and pictures!! Its hard!! I am very happy for all of them, but gahhh!!! It makes things so much harder!!
But today, I realized....I really really REALLYYYY need to focus on the NOW and not worry and stress over things...It is really really hard, but I need to...no I HAVE to focus on the now!! I need to focus on my health, and on my marriage!!
Tonight I went for a walk with my Dixie girl! It was a nice walk, and I forgot how nice it was to get out, and walk, listening to music in my ears!! The sun was setting, the temperature was perfect, I could feel my mood getting better!!
So, to motivate me even more...I have come up with this theory.....It may seem kind of silly, but I really think it is going to help me, and motivate me to walk every evening....
I am in love with sunsets, and love watching the colors develop as the sun sets...So, here is my theory.....
As the sun is setting, I am going to think of it as mine and my husbands future baby, smiling down on me, letting me know that my time is coming soon...And to not lose hope, because as the sun goes down, it only gets prettier!! Like just as we are going through a hard time, thinking it is not going to get better, and then things look up, and it gets better! Just like a sunset, the more the sun goes down, the prettier, and more beautiful it becomes! Here is the first night of sunsets which made me think of this theory!
As the sun set tonight, it only got more and more amazing!! I will be taking pictures of the sunset every night....Call me crazy, but this picture just seems like a heart, with hands around it. Or like a mothers belly being held, definitely something that strikes me, and makes me feel very hopeful!
I just really want to say that I am so very thankful, and happy with all the continued support of my friends and family, and if you are reading this, then you truly are one of the ones I am talking about!! It means so much to me!!
I especially want to thank my husband for being my strength, because I definitely could not do this without him!! We may not see each other due to our lovely opposite work schedules, but I know he is there for me, and loves me unconditionally, and I cannot wait to make him a dad, because I know he is going to be an amazing daddy!! <3
Good luck & lot's of baby dust!! I am starting my 2nd Clomid cycle (100mg) and praying I get a positive on my OPK!!
ReplyDeleteAwe you made me cry. Such a perfect perfect idea to take pics of the sunset. What a gorgeous sunset. Put them in your scrapbook. Luv ya honey and I can't wait to see my grand baby.
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